This Christmas will be my first Christmas;
without my loved one by my side.
This Christmas will be my first Christmas;
since something inside of me died.
Not sure how I’m gonna handle the festivities;
I’m really not in the mood.
Please forgive me if you catch me a little down;
don’t mean to be acting so rude.
It’s just that a part of me is missing;
seems like they were always here with me.
I’ll tell you what gift I wish were there;
underneath the Christmas tree.
Father, this emptiness inside of me;
will it ever go away?
I know they are safe in your loving arms;
but, I’m so lonely every day.
“My child, I know of your heartache;
you simply must believe that I care.
I also know a bit about separation;
for I too, once was there.
I’ll never forget my first Christmas;
without my only begotten Son.
We enjoyed sweet fellowship from eternity past;
until this deed was done.
He willingly laid aside his Godhood;
volunteered to become a man.
My heart was broken at the severance;
while He purchased salvation’s plan.
When I watched Him hang on Golgotha’s cross;
child, you cannot imagine the pain
But for the joy set before Him He endured the cross;
and the knowledge of what heaven would gain.”
5 Minutes of Hope 